Yesterday I was feeling anxious. Asking myself if I'm 'wasting' some of my precious days acting as if nothing has changed, as if it's just a 'normal' day? When I'm on my own, I sit for hours, surfing, reading random stuff, watching random 'sh*t' TV or just sleeping the day away (sleep is valuable for good health but nothing is good in excess). This is how I spent my spare time before the small c joined me on my life's journey and I'm sure she expected to make more of an impact on me than that!
Soon enough there will be no more 'normal', nor will there be any opportunities to do anything of 'value', which is perhaps what scares me - I won't have a choice - perhaps my biggest achievement will be just getting through each day? Who knows what treatment will bring - not much of 'treat' though for sure!
However, looking on the bright side, I'm probably much better equipped to cope post chemo, than say Danni, as I like nothing better than surfing, reading random stuff, watching random 'sh*t' TV or just sleeping the day away! Perhaps, unknowingly, I've been in training for this challenge for years! Aah the Universe at work - wakey wakey!! 😊